At the time of writing my last post (on writers block and mental illness) I was fairly stressed. I sometimes think that it’s hardly the symptoms which have the real affect on me now, it’s my reactions to the symptoms. A psychotic or delusional thought/notion will pop into my head, and it pisses me off…… Continue reading Leaving Psychosis behind me
Your ring makes my hand happy. It lends a reassuring weight to my right index finger, like a counter weight to the hard bone it encompasses. My fingers move more nimbly now, and my wrinkles are smoothed away by the shining silver and elegant infinite hearts which circle and gently hold on to the…… Continue reading Your Ring
Raaaah- I should be editing right about now. I should be working on chapter 5, working out ways to reduce my word count, and present my ideas in ways which are accessible and vaguely interesting. I want to get this book edited, I want to prune it down into a shape which would be manageable…… Continue reading Writing with mental illness, exercising inner demons, or just plain old writers block
I do definitely have moments where I feel like I could believe in a higher power, or a higher force of some kind. My issue, or uncertainty, is- is that force conscious? Or do we all simply have a conscience, or a voice in our head, that could be misconstrued as a God. Therefore, ultimately,…… Continue reading A Post about a friend of mine who is long overdue some luck (part 2)
I just got of the phone to one of my best and closest friends, someone who has weathered every storm I’ve had to trudge through with me; someone who I know would pick up the phone to listen to me break down, rant and cry at any hour of the day or night (and has…… Continue reading A post about a friend of mine who is long over-due some luck (part 1)
“It’s a duality Ally, not a singularity.” This was the line my boyfriend delivered to me, from within a dream. I awoke the next morning, remembered it and knew- my boyfriend is a genius. I had suspected it for a long time.. but this only confirmed it. I mean, who manages to impart such crucial…… Continue reading “It’s a duality Ally, not a singularity”- and other such genius, which my boyfriend shares whilst I’m dreaming (part 2)
These two posts are about a piece of advice my boyfriend gave me, from within a dream. I woke one morning, to recall him telling me, quite emphatically, “it’s about a duality, Ally, not a singularity.” Once I made sure I hadn’t been drinking the night before, and this wasn’t a deep and meaningful we’d…… Continue reading The solitary nature of singularity (part 1)
Jim Morrison Haunts my thoughts. Lingering he leers at me And sneers at my Attempts At writing. I try snarling back In an appropriate manner, But other things Distract me And capture my attention. Jim smoulders, and Pouts at me ironically “What, do I not inspire you; Am I not hot enough?” …… Continue reading Trying to pout like Jim Morrison
I am just about to start the third edit of my book, that is- just about to start, after first finishing this post, and then getting some lunch and perhaps heading down to town to pick up some groceries and run some errands. My last post was about procrastination- I am not going to procrastinate…… Continue reading Thoughts on starting third edit
That excruciating moment with writing: You have sat down, arranged your coffee, snacks and water within easy reaching distance, adjusted your chair so that your back is supported, switched off wi-fi as well as your phone, and stared intently at the screen- only to feel a million and one distracting thoughts rise through your mind,…… Continue reading Back to writing, and problems with concentration
Mad new world 