I periodically fall down holes he’s always there to help me, he reaches down with hand outstretched and eyes which light the way back up. In that light the shadows soften, in that light the dark bows down, in that light the holes inverted and lifts us both up to touch the stars. …… Continue reading He’s always there.
Once again.. I am meant to be writing my book, and instead I am distractedly typing away on WordPress. My boyfriend just published an article about motivation, and in that he commented on the difference between motivation and discipline. He pointed out that whilst he is motivated to write, he is not disciplined enough (atm)…… Continue reading The final push- channeling my motivation and practising discipline with writing
(Continued from a previous article..) Moreover, if you entertain any of these thoughts for too long, the obvious yet perilous extension is to start wondering where the strength of these experiences come from- and that is when you start to stray into really dangerous territory. Because the intensity of the experiences literally wipes reason away…… Continue reading Why, the phrase”I hear voices” is woefully inadequate in summing up the horrendous nature of mental illness (2)
The words coil in your mind; they billow and blossom and meander. Ideas suggest themselves; they show themselves as reflection in the wet pools of your thoughts. You absorb their indication as you concentrate, you look in the direction they lead your minds eye, and you start to wonder at their echoes and their strains…… Continue reading The art of writing- the act of expression
I am lucky enough to have a friend who has the same diagnosis as me. (Lucky in the sense that it means that I have someone to share my experiences with, not because it gives me a really broad and diverse spectrum of people I can claim to be close to). Anyway.. she has had…… Continue reading Why, the phrase”I hear voices” is woefully inadequate in summing up the horrendous nature of mental illness (1)
I have that feeling, simmering away in my gut and my chest; that feeling you get when you know you have a dam lot of work ahead of you, and there isn’t anything you can do about it other than look up and meet it head on. You have moments when you think, ah I…… Continue reading Motivation- in anticipation of hard work..
I suffer from paranoid schizophrenia, and have done for twelve years. The way my “suffering” manifests has changed over the years; I no longer experience full blown hallucinations and the intense delusional thinking and experience of my early years with this diagnosis, but I do still deal with invasive voices, mild invasive thoughts, mildly delusional…… Continue reading The next step- blogging for mental health sites, publications and online journals
I’m at a bit of an awkward stage with my book right now, in that I am trying to put together two chapters which need to advance a “message,” and therefore need to be really compelling. This message needs to be one of empowerment and self belief; and I want to get it just right.…… Continue reading How to promote empowerment- a tricky chapter to write
I spent today reconnecting with my WordPress followers. I have just hit the 100 mark, and decided to go back through my followers and remind myself of who I have connected with so far, thank people for bothering to follow me, and promote the book. The book- which has kinda been put on the back…… Continue reading WordPress: welcome to the world..
Strange flashing neon lights- the sun rises up again over the trash cans and the chill retreats for a time. This light reflects in dirty water, puddles as useless and unnoticed as the wet on the homeless mans cheeks. Gun fire stutters through his mind, and his eyes flash with the echoing horror. He huddles…… Continue reading From knee height; a homeless man’s perspective