(Poem written in 2002- wowzas..)
I wanted you to continue with
your agony out-pour red,
I longed to feel you screaming
hear you shriek at all I’d said.
You liked to scratch me inside
in places hidden deep,
you stroked and teased this dark place
while my eyes grew crazed and wept.
I slowly gave myself to that
gave in and swooped to fall,
beneath the elm trees blowing
and the moons unearthly call.
I swayed around the courtyard
my skirts got caught on glass,
they ripped and left me ragged
my exquisite self was halved.
But this was pleasure beautiful
beneath the ivory light,
your eyes found mine within the dark;
homed in, you came with night.
You froze me close and circling
I felt you at my neck,
the wind was stroking, twisting me
repaid some lifelong debt.
But you were tall and deathly
your soul seeped into mine,
your skin was ice with mouth of life,
we mingle to one in time.
And now, much later, all is still
am I still awake?
I’ve been reborn, I am alive;
alive through your crimson – ivory fate.