Clenched jaw

I looked you up;

you locked me out.

Freezing water

took over my senses then-

my jaw clenched and

I ground my teeth

like an animal

I wanted to throw things

break things and

then set out on exhibition-

set out into the

frozen unknown wasteland

to find you,

stalk you down and

then scream like a

banshee, like

wind tearing down

an empty street.

 

I won’t though.

I’ll freeze into a small

hard block, white skinned

and disheartened.

I’ll step up and away,

wrap a blanket round my

shoulders and turn the

light off.

Only my tears

will betray me.

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