(Continued from section 2..) It is obviously formulaic to say that Mental illness defies reason, and initially it defies it on every conceivable level and non-conceivable level. You lose the rational part of your mind, and instead delusion and fantasy, paranoia and belief rush in. I am aware that the last 12 years have…… Continue reading The mine-field which is mental illness and relationships (3)
One of the main things I am learning as I progress with my recovery, is to have faith in my own ability to ride the natural highs and lows inherent in a single day. Today has been a case in point. I’d had a few glasses of wine last night, and so was fairly fuzzy this morning. Ru…… Continue reading Riding the highs and lows inherent in a single day.
(Continued from part 1) I’ve come to realise that the specific underlying factor causing the tic and all it’s related mental illness infused mayhem is the closeness of Ru and mine’s relationship, the intimacy. I sometimes wonder if being close to someone kind of brings all the madness out. Everything I’d managed to pack up inside of myself, and…… Continue reading The mine-field which is mental illness and relationships (2)
I started back working on my “Recovery from Mental Illness” book over the weekend, and whilst reading back through a chapter I had written about 15 months ago on how to navigate close relationships I couldn’t help but laugh at my own single-minded and optimistic clarity of belief. Don’t get me wrong- everything I’ve written…… Continue reading The mine-field which is mental illness and relationships (part 1)
I had a fairly mixed weekend. I went to visit my friend in hospital on Saturday, which was a fairly upsetting day. She is one of my closest friends, and on some levels the friend I am most close to; we met at the Royal Bethlam Hospital and have very similar diagnoses. She is the…… Continue reading Dedicated to a friend (3)
(Continued from part 1..) What I am wondering now though, is whether or not I have simply tied up too many knots inside of me. Whether that by trying to understand the tall tree of my madness, rather than simply cleaving it down the moment I became aware of it, I have allowed those roots…… Continue reading Learning to let go- the parting blow of psychosis? (part 2)
As some of you already know, I am currently writing a “self-help” style book on how to recover from severe mental illness. I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia twelve years ago, and have been recovering since; this feels real and tangible on some days, and less so on others. But this is not unusual; we…… Continue reading Learning to let go- the parting blow of psychosis? (Part 1)