(Continued from part 1..) What I am wondering now though, is whether or not I have simply tied up too many knots inside of me. Whether that by trying to understand the tall tree of my madness, rather than simply cleaving it down the moment I became aware of it, I have allowed those roots…… Continue reading Learning to let go- the parting blow of psychosis? (part 2)
As some of you already know, I am currently writing a “self-help” style book on how to recover from severe mental illness. I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia twelve years ago, and have been recovering since; this feels real and tangible on some days, and less so on others. But this is not unusual; we…… Continue reading Learning to let go- the parting blow of psychosis? (Part 1)
I haven’t been posting regularly on WordPress for quite a few months now. A lot has been happening, and I’ve been swept up in it. A very close friend of mine is still in hospital after being bowled over by her symptoms. She has been fighting them tooth and nail for years, but they seem…… Continue reading Dedicated to a friend (2)
This is the first post I’ve written in a while. So much has been happening, and I feel as though I got sucked out of my usual orbit for a good few weeks. I’ve already written about that, and I don’t want to go back there. All I will say, is that it is behind…… Continue reading Light at the end of the tunnel!
So I’m listening to a playlist on Spotify- and I notice something interesting. I notice that I am absent-mindedly searching for something in the music- and when I look at this further I realise I am persistently trying to find myself (if you will) within the music, and the simultaneously melodic and discordant sounds which break…… Continue reading Reconnecting with a sense of Identity (Part 1)
So I have come out the end of a long nightmare spiral, and I have learnt a lot- despite the fact that I seem to have spent a lot of the last month ranting and raving. Ru has been with me, through every twist and turn and tumble; and the end result appears to have…… Continue reading Out of the darkness- and looking forwards to Glastonbury!
So today has been good so far. The sun is out and shining bright, and although i woke late i managed to gather together all my things (a massive bag packed for 5 nights at Ru’s), pick up a taxi to take me down the hill to the station and jump on my train with…… Continue reading A sunny day in Sutton.