Today is the last day of my first ever contract of employment. At my age, you might be wondering- wow, you were lucky enough to find a stable, secure position which you actually enjoyed enough to stay in for what, ten years?! Well the answer to that is no- I’m 33, this has been my…… Continue reading Sunny contemplations, from the office
If your fantasies could become realised- if all you had to do was crawl back inside your minds eye, (why decide) Would you follow desire, would you let go of the status quo; would you follow a thought pattern far below and dare to remain there, dare to wait, dare to stare back straight into the…… Continue reading Why decide
I re-wrote chapter 5 of my self-help book on Wednesday night. Its subject is the idea of viewing yourself as the hero or heroine of your own epic life story, as a means of empowering yourself to over come severe mental illness. I make the comment that every person should view themselves in this way…… Continue reading Why schizophrenia may have saved my life.
So today I got a phone call from a lady from a Mental Health Charity MQ, and after a half hour or so conversation she asked me if I’d like to blog for their site, and perhaps do some ambassadorial for them as well! I’m pretty excited, as I’ve been trying to find a mental…… Continue reading First Steps in the right direction.. blogging for a mental health charity!
God- you see Through my eye, How did you get in? I do not remember opening Any door. And yet here you are; My potential My downfall My power My terror. Can there be any escape from Such vast implication? Can such a small word contain Such might? If God had a face, What would…… Continue reading God
On Wednesday I had the best news I’ve had so far this year. A friend of Nina’s messaged me to say that when he visited her that morning she had been much better, and that she had been asking about me and wanted my phone number so she could call me. I got this message as I was walking through…… Continue reading The greatest news ever- I got my best friend back!!
Hope- like a white feather circling in a tempestuous hurricane, caught and thrown, eddied and thrust through the violence of the raging storm, fragile as a baby sparrow in those vicious gales, delicate, but retaining it’s own fundamental quality- retaining its own colour and soft eternal presence. Despite the strength of the forces which carry and…… Continue reading Hope
Love- a vast calm ocean, a still, empty space in my mind now, where previously there was only the chaos and roar of spiralling mad dissatisfaction. This new silence hums golden and positively thrumbs with untold possibility and a deep resonating potential; higher frequency and higher notes, hold me way up above the noisy blare from…… Continue reading Love
Living in grace. Every thought batters it’s way through your head with a force like some great battle axe. Hard wood and cold steel; these elements have no place in your far away land. You land is calm, and gentle; when the winds sweep across it and ruffle your hair across your forehead I see…… Continue reading Dedicated to a friend
After the voices fade away, and the related mental mayhem subsides and dark clouds scatter to reveal the blue sky once more- I can finally hear myself think. It feels like summer. Like the storm has subsided, the air pressure has dropped and the pounding rains have ceased. Now there is only big calm, now…… Continue reading Big Calm