“Would you do anything for me?” the question holds so many implications. I try to hold onto something more than what I am, but it all turns to snarling grimaces, to ashes in my mouth. Do we need to fight for me to feel real; do I need to let you hurt me feel your…… Continue reading Feelings (poem)
Rage: it’s what we push onto others when we can’t stomach the threat of it ourselves. It’s where the need leads us; the need to be vindicated, the need to have all our fears realised and justified. The need which leads us to use others, because that threat; that threat is too dire to face.…… Continue reading A creative dissection; Rage
I’ve lived with voices for so many years now, it’s really hard for me to think back to the time in my life when I didn’t hear them. I can’t really remember how it feels to think without my thought process being interrupted and distracted by “voices.” It’s like I am aware of the constant…… Continue reading Focusing on “the voices,” and attempting to make sense of the nonsensible
I’ve been fairly quiet on WordPress for a few months now. A lot has happened; a new job, a fairly grim patch with regards to my mental health, a subsequent decision to increase my meds, and then a period of introspection and reflection. I’m doing ok, and a lot better than a few months ago before…… Continue reading Update- work, recovery and life
We walk into a situation. Any situation. A room at a party; an adjacent seat at a dinner table; a group training exercise. I turn to you and say, “Hello, I have mental illness.” How would you respond? If I were as open with this fact as you might be if you had had a particularly bad…… Continue reading “Hello, I have a mental illness..” (1)
Preparing to write- My fingers flex like little boxers making their way to the ring, bouncing up and down on the balls of their tiny feet, stretching and swigging water. In the opposite corner my brain reclines, languishing like a pro, confident in it’s electrical superiority. The bell chimes, and the fight begins. I stare…… Continue reading An epic battle (1)
Mad new world 