It’s terrifying how fast things change. One moment you’re struggling- cast adrift in a churning, raging ocean, and then the next you’re floating on gentle waves beneath a bright corn flower blue sky. Living with a serious mental illness diagnosis can feel a little bit like living with a mind prone to severe, unpredictable weather…… Continue reading Recovery; living with schizophrenia (1)
I’ve lived with voices for so many years now, it’s really hard for me to think back to the time in my life when I didn’t hear them. I can’t really remember how it feels to think without my thought process being interrupted and distracted by “voices.” It’s like I am aware of the constant…… Continue reading Focusing on “the voices,” and attempting to make sense of the nonsensible
I’ve been fairly quiet on WordPress for a few months now. A lot has happened; a new job, a fairly grim patch with regards to my mental health, a subsequent decision to increase my meds, and then a period of introspection and reflection. I’m doing ok, and a lot better than a few months ago before…… Continue reading Update- work, recovery and life
We walk into a situation. Any situation. A room at a party; an adjacent seat at a dinner table; a group training exercise. I turn to you and say, “Hello, I have mental illness.” How would you respond? If I were as open with this fact as you might be if you had had a particularly bad…… Continue reading “Hello, I have a mental illness..” (1)
So, as the title says- it’s been a good Tuesday. I’m slightly regretting pushing it so hard at the gym though, as I’m doing an outreach shift tonight so probably won’t get to bed before 1am. My legs are already beginning to feel a little bit stiff, and I have a feeling I’m gonna need a…… Continue reading Back on the book, burning 850 calories and doing an outreach shift- a highly productive Tuesday
So I have just submitted my first article to a mental health website!! I hope that the two exclamation marks indicate how excited I am about this.. (I figured using more than two would just be excessive..!!) Anyway- I have dreamt of being a published author for as long as I can remember, but when,…… Continue reading First article submitted to online platform StigmaFighters- now comes the waiting game!
(Continued from part 2..) It’s like there is a web of fears, doubts and terrors shrouding your positive mind, and once something tips your train of thought over onto the lines of that “web,” it gets stuck and can’t find it’s way back onto a rational, positive level; it can’t find its way back…… Continue reading Why, the phrase”I hear voices” is woefully inadequate in summing up the horrendous nature of mental illness (3)
Once again.. I am meant to be writing my book, and instead I am distractedly typing away on WordPress. My boyfriend just published an article about motivation, and in that he commented on the difference between motivation and discipline. He pointed out that whilst he is motivated to write, he is not disciplined enough (atm)…… Continue reading The final push- channeling my motivation and practising discipline with writing
I am lucky enough to have a friend who has the same diagnosis as me. (Lucky in the sense that it means that I have someone to share my experiences with, not because it gives me a really broad and diverse spectrum of people I can claim to be close to). Anyway.. she has had…… Continue reading Why, the phrase”I hear voices” is woefully inadequate in summing up the horrendous nature of mental illness (1)
I have that feeling, simmering away in my gut and my chest; that feeling you get when you know you have a dam lot of work ahead of you, and there isn’t anything you can do about it other than look up and meet it head on. You have moments when you think, ah I…… Continue reading Motivation- in anticipation of hard work..