Thirteen years ago I was diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia and hospitalised. I was assigned a social worker and a community psychiatric nurse, who then worked with me for about five years. They were part of the Early Intervention in Psychosis unit, and shouldn’t have worked with me for longer than about a year, but because…… Continue reading Nine months as a Support Worker, and a fairly steep learning curve
God- you see Through my eye, How did you get in? I do not remember opening Any door. And yet here you are; My potential My downfall My power My terror. Can there be any escape from Such vast implication? Can such a small word contain Such might? If God had a face, What would…… Continue reading God
Illness swirls around my mind, how can I leave this fog behind? Lights flicker dimly on the edge of sight, beckoning through this constant night. Faces I recognise and voices I know sometimes stretch to me so far below- but my mind is cloaked in dread and doubt how will I ever climb back out? By following…… Continue reading Recovery
On Wednesday I had the best news I’ve had so far this year. A friend of Nina’s messaged me to say that when he visited her that morning she had been much better, and that she had been asking about me and wanted my phone number so she could call me. I got this message as I was walking through…… Continue reading The greatest news ever- I got my best friend back!!
Hope- like a white feather circling in a tempestuous hurricane, caught and thrown, eddied and thrust through the violence of the raging storm, fragile as a baby sparrow in those vicious gales, delicate, but retaining it’s own fundamental quality- retaining its own colour and soft eternal presence. Despite the strength of the forces which carry and…… Continue reading Hope
When my mind smiles it wafts like a cloudy day- scudding charcoal and light puffing grey splotches across a brilliant blue sky. Endless light and clarity, tempered by such soft patches of gentle in-distinction. On darker days the pressure builds and storm clouds loom, ominous and foreboding of what is to come- first rumblings of deepest…… Continue reading My mind like a weather system
This is the first post I’ve written in a while. So much has been happening, and I feel as though I got sucked out of my usual orbit for a good few weeks. I’ve already written about that, and I don’t want to go back there. All I will say, is that it is behind…… Continue reading Light at the end of the tunnel!
A bursting feeling in my chest the widest smile as I say yes, the tragic pull each time he leaves, admiring my heart upon my sleeve. A tempest raging somewhere deep the strongest vow I want to keep, a connection worked upon and kept; elevated self and breath. A constant light which keeps me safe…… Continue reading 1, 2 – Love
I do definitely have moments where I feel like I could believe in a higher power, or a higher force of some kind. My issue, or uncertainty, is- is that force conscious? Or do we all simply have a conscience, or a voice in our head, that could be misconstrued as a God. Therefore, ultimately,…… Continue reading A Post about a friend of mine who is long overdue some luck (part 2)
I just got of the phone to one of my best and closest friends, someone who has weathered every storm I’ve had to trudge through with me; someone who I know would pick up the phone to listen to me break down, rant and cry at any hour of the day or night (and has…… Continue reading A post about a friend of mine who is long over-due some luck (part 1)