I’m presently locked into a violent and somewhat personal battle with the words which exist in my head. I’ve found most of the relevant ones already, now I’m struggling to rearrange them into an order which pleases me. This battle’s been going on for quite some time, and my associated war wounds are real and…… Continue reading #WritingCommunity
In the last two weeks I have cut down my e-cigarette usage by 75%. GO me. I’ve been wanting to do this for years, but haven’t been able to because my e-cigarette is a trusted and highly effective emotional crutch for me. I have been leaning on it for about five years now, and although…… Continue reading Acknowledging a reduction in nicotine..
I have finally started my new job, and at the end of my first Monday, my feelings are… overwhelming good, tinged with a strange bittersweet desire to look to the past. I’m so bloody lucky that the position opened up, in a role which I’d already volunteered at for six months, and therefore had an…… Continue reading Musings on full-time employment- day 1
Big dog, voice in my head which refuses to stop panting. Like some oversized mutt which needs the barrel of a gun in it’s mouth. I generally resist such violence, especially to apparently harmless animals, but this dog has a leering grin and a lolling tongue and breath which makes my skin crawl. It’s skin…… Continue reading How to kill the voice in my head (1)
So this illness is persistent. This is a really simple way of describing how completely horrendous the few couple of weeks have been. It’s been like all the lingering symptoms which have hung around over the last five years, and have been distressing in a kind of low level, regular and predictable way, blew wide…… Continue reading A bleak couple of weeks. Now behind me.