I’m going through quite a strange phase at the moment. I’ve written a couple of posts, in the last couple of months about how I”m no longer 100% comfortable stating that the difficulties I encounter day to day can be attributed to the schizophrenia, and I wonder if through this observation I’ve started a ball…… Continue reading A Strange Phase..
This may end up becoming something of a rant, so I apologise in advance if this article turns into something of a targeted slagging off session against my doctor, societal norms generally and/or the way I seem to police myself and my own thinking. I started writing it a few days ago, but had to…… Continue reading The importance of agency, when dealing with mental health symptoms
About this time of year I always experience a deep sense of optimism and positivity about myself and my own potential. My awareness of the looming date – 1st January – always works to reassure me that all the things I want to achieve are, once again, achievable. This sensation and self belief always begins…… Continue reading New Years Resolutions
My last day at work was last Friday. My fixed term contract came to an end, and I’m currently waiting on a start date for new employment. This is all extremely exciting and massively nerve-wracking but I want to leave that for another post; the roller coaster which has been my “return to the world…… Continue reading A book proposal- AND a 10,000 person online platform
It is the 30th of December and a new year looms. I am still sat, writing crappy poetry and vacillating between numerous unfinished projects. I have the main project, the one I have been working on for three years and have recently sent to my mum for beta reading and comment, as a kind of…… Continue reading Writing, thinking about writing, and de-cluttering my flat.
Pursuing my dreams often causes me a headache, and yet the idea of not pursuing the things I can imagine seems infinitely more painful. The proverbial rock and hard-place. I am stuck between the looming rock-face I wish to scale, and the hard place behind me which is a hard, flat desert of inactivity. I spend…… Continue reading The tiring nature of pursuing ones dreams
I have been absent from word-press for some time now, and I wish I could say it’s because I’ve simply been too busy. That’s the generally acceptable excuse, isn’t it? To say things along the lines of ‘real life has been too fast paced,’ or ‘my real life has become too busy to allow me…… Continue reading Another return to WordPress- and a vow to finally finish my book.
Ru and I headed up to Canary Wharf on Thursday night, to attend an event which the Mental Health Charity MQ had put on for its ambassadors. It was a kind of meet and greet, where we could network and chat to one another about how we had interpreted the ambassadorial role and what work…… Continue reading Mental Health Charity MQ wants to focus on research, but what kinds of research?
So- I have had a very long absense from WordPress. I started a full time job as a support worker at a homelessness charity back in August and consequently my extra curicular activities have been somewhat side-lined. I’m gradually getting used to the new pace of life though, and so hope to get back into…… Continue reading Check in- Wednesday 1st November 2017
Illness swirls around my mind, how can I leave this fog behind? Lights flicker dimly on the edge of sight, beckoning through this constant night. Faces I recognise and voices I know sometimes stretch to me so far below- but my mind is cloaked in dread and doubt how will I ever climb back out? By following…… Continue reading Recovery